Zheng
Yongshen
Funan
County, Anhui Province
I was a co-worker
of the Stream of Recovery. On December 8, 1998, a brother of our
church came to me to preach the work of Almighty God of the last
days. He gave me a book of Almighty God’s word and asked me to read
it. I was very angry and rebuked him, “We only believe in the LordJesus; why did you convert to the faith of another god?” Running my
eyes over more than one page of the book, I laid it aside, because I
thought the words were plain and simple, and too shallow. The brother
said to me earnestly, “Better finish reading it, and you will know
it is truly the word personally spoken by God.” “I don’t think
so. Now that you insist it is God’s own word, you get a pen and a
notebook, put them on the table, and ask God to speak!” I said
rudely. And then I murmured to myself angrily, “You believers in
Almighty God have stolen many of our lambs, and now you also want to
draw me in. No way!” Then I went to the church, and called some
other co-workers together and discussed how to guard against the
“Eastern Lightning,” trying to work out ways to fight back
against it.
After that, we went to every meeting place spreading these slanderous and blasphemous words: “You mustn’t believe in the ‘Eastern Lightning.’ It is a false Christ, a false prophet, who tries to deceive people in the disguise of the Lord. What we believe in is the truth. Don’t listen to their messages. Those people are the disturbers of the church. It is a test of whether we have foundation. If your foundation is built on sand, you will be taken away by them; if you have foundation, you will be able to stand no matter how they disturb.” And I also started rumors among the believers, “The sect of Almighty God is a mafia, and they have guns. Once you join them, you can’t withdraw. If you want to, they will gouge out your eyes, cut off your nose or ears, or break your legs. And they are promiscuous.” In order to preserve my position and fame and prevent the brothers and sisters from receiving the truth, I fabricated horrible lies to seal off the church and used the biblical verses out of context to condemn God’s work of the last days. As a result, many who had no discernment and didn’t know the truth were too frightened to accept Almighty God’s work of the last days. These are the evils I have done.
One day in February
2000, my younger sister came to my house, and she preached Almighty
God’s gospel of the last days to me. I said to her, “Don’t come
again if you preach it. I’ve heard it a few times. I won’t
believe in it whatever you say.” But she kept talking about how God
does the reaping, choosing, and judging work when He has come this
time. No matter what she said, I couldn’t take it in. Since then,
my sister often came to preach the gospel to me, and meanwhile, she
helped me do any work. Even so, my marble heart was not moved.
Several times she left in tears because of my stiff resistance to the
gospel. Each time after she left, I still did evil as
before—desperately blaspheming and slandering Almighty God’s work
and sealing off the church, for fear that all the believers might
accept Almighty God and I would become a “general without an army.”After that, we went to every meeting place spreading these slanderous and blasphemous words: “You mustn’t believe in the ‘Eastern Lightning.’ It is a false Christ, a false prophet, who tries to deceive people in the disguise of the Lord. What we believe in is the truth. Don’t listen to their messages. Those people are the disturbers of the church. It is a test of whether we have foundation. If your foundation is built on sand, you will be taken away by them; if you have foundation, you will be able to stand no matter how they disturb.” And I also started rumors among the believers, “The sect of Almighty God is a mafia, and they have guns. Once you join them, you can’t withdraw. If you want to, they will gouge out your eyes, cut off your nose or ears, or break your legs. And they are promiscuous.” In order to preserve my position and fame and prevent the brothers and sisters from receiving the truth, I fabricated horrible lies to seal off the church and used the biblical verses out of context to condemn God’s work of the last days. As a result, many who had no discernment and didn’t know the truth were too frightened to accept Almighty God’s work of the last days. These are the evils I have done.
One day in
September 2000, my sister came again. She invited me to her home to
listen to the gospel of the last days, because some preachers were
there, but I brushed her off. She said to me, “Why do you believe
in God, brother? People often say, ‘With the truth on your side,
you can go anywhere; without it, you can’t take a step.’ Since
you believe in the true God, why don’t you dare to fellowship with
others?” My believing wife also said, “Why don’t you go to meet
them? Are you afraid of losing face?” I was annoyed by her words
and said, “Afraid of losing face? I’ll go!” So I left with my
sister in a fit of pique. Arriving there, I saw seven people were
present, and they were waiting for me. We immediately started to
fellowship. When a brother said that God came to do the work of the
word this time, I got furious and asked, “Where is the word God has
personally spoken?” The brother took out a book entitled
“Utterances of Christ” and said that it was God’s personal
word. “You all preach the same. The book is plainly written by a
man, but you say that it is God’s word. I don’t believe!” I
said angrily. With that, I charged out of the door in exasperation.
After I returned from there, I sealed off the church more fiercely,
for I was certain that what I believe in was the most true God. I
went to the meeting places everywhere preaching, “What those people
believe in is the antichrist, the one written in the Bible who ‘sits
in the temple of God and shows himself that he is God.’ …. What
we believe in is the truth. As long as we stand firm, we will be
overcomers and pillars. When the coming of the kingdom of the Lord
Christ is declared, we will enter the kingdom.” I ran around
sealing off the church for the sake of preserving my position, just
like what Jesus said in the Bible: “… for you shut up the kingdom
of heaven against men: for you neither go in yourselves, neither
suffer you them that are entering to go in” (Matthew: 23:13).
On December 9 of
2000, my sister came to my home again. She warned me not to speak
without fear, not to blaspheme God, or I would be punished by God. I
didn’t believe her words at all, and even retorted arrogantly,
“Don’t try to frighten me. I’ve never feared anything.” But
several days later, I really received God’s discipline. On the
afternoon of December 16, I went to preach with a co-worker, and
after speaking only two sentences in the meeting, I lost my voice.
Seeing that, the co-worker gave me a glass of water, and I drank it.
But after I said two sentences, I lost my voice again. This happened
three times. Shaking my head, I had to stop preaching for a rest.
On the morning of
February 6, 2001, a brother in my village, who had been a co-worker
of mine, came to my home and talked with me about belief in God.
While we were talking, my sister came again. She begged me to go to
listen to the messages about Almighty God’s work. The brother also
urged me to go, and he wanted to accompany me. I said, “We can’t
go. Being weak doesn’t matter, but we mustn’t go astray.” But
he said, “Since we joined the Stream of Recovery, we have heard
that Brother Li talked about the oneness and the building up, but why
have the churches not been united into one by now but instead
divided? There must be something wrong. And Brother Li said that the
‘corporate new man’ would appear before 2000. Now is already
2001, but why has it not appeared yet? The ‘corporate new man’ is
sure to have appeared, but we don’t know where it is. We should
seek! Let’s go hear their messages. If it is a true way, we accept
it, and if it isn’t, that’ll do us no harm, and we’ll just take
it as a visit to the relative….” After much of his persuasion, I
agreed to go listen to their fellowship. When we got there, we saw
several brothers were waiting for us. One brother asked me how long I
had believed in God and what was the condition of our church. I said,
“I’ve believed for five years. Our church life is not normal.”
The brother continued to ask, “What do you think is the root of the
desolation of the church?” I gave no reply. Then he began to
fellowship from Genesis to Revelation. He fellowshiped, “God’s
work is always new and never old, and does not repeat, and it doesn’t
conform to men’s notions. God can open up a new age and bring the
old age to an end…. The key feature of God’s work is ‘new’
and ‘wondrous,’ and if one keeps up with God’s work, he will
‘live,’ or he will ‘die.’ For example, in the Age of Grace,
when the Lord Jesus came, He spoke new words and did new work. Those
disciples kept up with the steps of God’s work. They accepted the
words and work of the Lord Jesus and received God’s new supply and
blessings. The chief priests, scribes, and Pharisees, however, failed
to follow the steps of God’s work. They held on to the Old
Testament and used the letters of the prophecies in it to resist and
condemn the Lord Jesus and even crucified the Lord Jesus. They
committed a heinous sin and received God’s punishment and curse in
the end. This shows that as a believer in God, one should closely
follow the footsteps of the Lamb, and wherever He went, he should
follow Him closely. If one cannot give up his old notions or keep
pace with God’s work, he will only end up being eliminated by God.”
The brother also
fellowshiped about the causes of the Pharisees refusing to
acknowledge the Lord Jesus as Christ and resisting Him: 1. The Old
Testament made no record of the genealogy of Jesus. If there had been
a detailed genealogy of Jesus in it, people wouldn’t have resisted
Him. 2. The Old Testament prophesied that a virgin should conceive,
and bear a son, and should call His name Immanuel (Isaiah 7:14).
However, people saw that Jesus had both parents and brothers and
sisters, and moreover, His name was not called Immanuel, which were
not in agreement with the prophecy. 3. The prophecy said that He
would be born in Bethlehem (Micah5: 2), but people saw that Jesus
preached as a Nazarene, which didn’t correspond with the prophesy
either. 4. What Jesus did was completely different from the work that
Jehovah did in the age of the Old Testament. He didn’t enter the
temple, nor did He keep the Law, not observing the Sabbath and other
things. People thought that Jesus destroyed the Law and opposed
Jehovah. Moreover, He even claimed Himself to be the Son of God. So
the Pharisees nailed Jesus to the cross for the sake of safeguarding
the Law and the work of Jehovah. 5. The Old Testament prophesied that
there would come One who would be ruler over Israel (Micah 5: 2), and
the government should be on His shoulder (Isaiah 9: 6). But actually
a very ordinary “Nazarene” came. The chief priests, elders,
scribes, and Pharisees all despised Him and all people sneered at Him
(Matthew 27:29-44). The brother then asked me, “If the Pharisees
had known that Jesus was the Messiah who would come, would they have
resisted Him?” “Of course not!” I said quickly. “Right,” he
said. “The Pharisees and scribes rejected Jesus and crucified Him
simply because they didn’t recognize that Jesus was Christ and
because what Jesus did was completely different from the Old
Testament. Today we are all expecting the Lord Jesus to come. Will He
still be called Jesus when He returns in the last days? Will people
be able to recognize Him?” I replied, “It’s hard to say.”
Then he continued, “The Lord has already come. He has become flesh
and started new work. He is female this time.” Hearing this, I
changed color, and my head buzzed instantly. I cried, “It is
possible that the Lord has already come, but it is absolutely
impossible that He has become flesh and is female!” These two
things were most unacceptable to me, so I didn’t like to listen
anymore, and I got up and wanted to leave. The brother who came with
me stopped me, saying, “Since you agree with most of what he has
said, let’s hear him out and see how he will explain the other
questions, so that we may gain more insight….” I sat down
reluctantly and prayed in my heart, “Lord, please help me and give
me discernment so that I won’t be deceived.” However, I couldn’t
take in anything. The brother asked me some questions, and I didn’t
answer him. Seeing this, he suggested, “Let’s stop talking about
that. Shall we talk about the Bible?” I nodded and said, “OK.”
So he showed me several verses which predicted the coming of the
Lord: Luke 17:24-25, 17:26-30, Revelation 1:12-16, Hebrews 9:28,
Revelation 11:15, and Revelation 14:1-4, 17:14. The brother said,
“These verses mention the ‘Son of man,’ ‘Christ,’ and the
‘Lamb.’ Then, what actually is the Son of man, Christ, or the
Lamb? Both Jehovah and Jesus are God Himself. Why is Jesus called the
Son of man, Christ, or the Lamb but Jehovah is not?” I really
didn’t know the answer. I had believed several years but I had
never thought about this question. However, for the sake of my vanity
and face, I was ashamed to say I didn’t know the answer. So I said,
“You can fellowship about it.” The brother said, “The ‘Son of
man,’ ‘Christ,’ and the ‘Lamb,’ all are the names by which
God incarnate is called. The Lord Jesus was called Christ because He
was the holy flesh donned by the Spirit of God. He had both a normal
humanity and a complete divinity. Only the One who has the two
qualities can be called Christ. Jehovah was the Spirit, and He at
times appeared in the spiritual body. But He had only complete
divinity and didn’t have normal humanity. So Jehovah could not be
called Christ, the Son of man, or the Lamb. The Bible predicts that
when the Lord comes the second time, He will be called the Son of
man, Christ, or the Lamb. Doesn’t it mean that God will come in the
flesh? If the Spirit or the spiritual body comes, can He be called
those names?” Hearing these words, I suddenly saw the light: It
turns out that the Lord will become flesh when He comes the second
time! All at once I felt much relieved and was willing to seek. The
brother went on saying, “Luke 17: 24-25 says, ‘For as the
lightning, that lightens out of the one part under heaven, shines to
the other part under heaven; so shall also the Son of man be in his
day. But first must he suffer many things, and be rejected of this
generation.’ Doesn’t it also mean that the Lord will become flesh
when He comes the second time? If the Spirit or the spiritual body
comes, could He suffer or be rejected by people? Besides, the Bible
says that false Christs will appear to deceive people in the last
days (Matthew 24:3-5). We all know that false Christs must be men. If
the Lord came not in the flesh but in the spiritual body, could the
false Christs imitate Him or impersonate Him? Could they deceive
people? Why did Jesus say there would be false Christs in the last
days? Wasn’t He giving a hint to His disciples that He would become
flesh when He came again? What do you think of it, brother?” Thank
God! Through the brother’s fellowship, I finally understood the
truth of this aspect. Then I asked, “How come I have never thought
of that before?” The brother said, “You didn’t think of that
because you have defined God and refused to seek. Didn’t Jesus say
that ‘Seek, and you shall find,’ and that ‘Blessed are the poor
in spirit’ and ‘Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after
righteousness’? How could one, who doesn’t seek, humble himself,
or hunger and thirst for righteousness, receive the enlightenment and
guidance from the Lord?” Hearing these words, I felt ashamed of
myself and regretted my blind condemnation of God’s new work
without seeking it because of my stubbornness and arrogance.
Afterward, through
reading God’s word, I realized: Whether God chooses to do the work
through the means of the Spirit or God incarnate is according to the
need of His work, the need of mankind, and the extent of Satan’s
corruption of man. This is like a doctor treating a patient’s
illness. What methods and medicine the doctor will use must be in
accordance with the need of the patient. The doctor cannot treat the
patient as he likes. In the Age of Law, because men had been
shallowly corrupted, God worked through the means of the Spirit, and
He only asked them to keep the law and be conscious of sin. But as
the times developed, men’s corruption has become deeper, and
moreover, they have no power to overcome sin. If God still works by
the means of the Spirit, the work wouldn’t achieve a desirable
effect on them. Therefore, in the last days, God came in the flesh
again, and He eats and lives together with men. He gives men accurate
words and specific guidance, supplying them according to their needs.
Only in this way can they be saved from the influence of Satan step
by step, so that they will live in the light and live under God’s
care and keeping. It is just as what Almighty God says: “This time,
God comes to do work not in a spiritual body but in a very ordinary
one. … In Him, you cannot see anything that is different from
others, but you can receive from Him the truths you have never heard
before. This insignificant flesh is the embodiment of all the words
of truth from God, that which undertakes God’s work in the last
days…. He is your gate into the kingdom, and your guide into the
new age.” “Though what man sees this day is a God that is the
same as man, a God with a nose and two eyes, and an unremarkable God,
in the end God will show you that without the existence of this man,
the heaven and earth will undergo a tremendous change; without the
existence of this man, the heaven will grow dim, the earth will
become chaos, and all mankind will live in famine and plagues. He
will show you that without the salvation of God incarnate in the last
days, then God would have long ago destroyed all mankind in hell;
without the existence of this flesh, then you would forever be chief
of sinners and corpses evermore. You should know that without the
existence of this flesh, all mankind would face an inevitable
calamity and find it difficult to escape God’s more severe
punishment of mankind in the last days. Without the birth of this
ordinary flesh, you would all be in a state where neither life nor
death will come no matter how you seek it; without the existence of
this flesh, then this day you would not be able to receive the truth
and come before the throne of God. Rather, you would be punished by
God because of your grievous sins. Do you know? If not for the return
of God to the flesh, none would have a chance at salvation; and if
not for the coming of this flesh, God would have long ago ended the
age of old. As such, can you still reject the second incarnation of
God? Since you can so greatly profit from this ordinary man, then why
would you not accept Him readily?” (from The Word Appears in the
Flesh) Through God’s words and the brother’s fellowship, I came
to understand that corrupt men are in great need of the salvation of
God incarnate. My notion about God’s incarnation was completely
resolved. But I still couldn’t get my head around the fact that the
God incarnate is female. So the brother read me the biblical verse in
Genesis 1:27, which says, “So God created man in his own image, in
the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.”
And he also read me these words of Almighty God: “Each stage of
work done by God has a real significance. When Jesus arrived, He was
male, and this time He is female. From this, you can see that God
created both male and female for His work and with Him there is no
distinction of gender. When His Spirit arrives, He can take on any
flesh at will and the flesh represents Him. Be it male or female,
both represent God as long as it is His incarnate flesh.” “If in
this stage He did not become flesh to personally do work for man to
witness, man would forever hold on to the notion that God is only
male, not female.” (from The Word Appears in the Flesh) The brother
fellowshiped, “We cannot understand a prophecy until it is
fulfilled and God explains it. If God doesn’t interpret, we can’t
understand it even though it is fulfilled. For God says: ‘In the
eyes of God, man is smaller than an ant, so how can man fathom God’s
work?’ (from The Word Appears in the Flesh) God is so great, so
wondrous and unfathomable, and no believer in God can deny that.
Since God can be incarnated as male, can’t He become female? So, as
a believer in God, we should pray and seek more before God when we
don’t understand, and shouldn’t jump to conclusions. This is what
a true believer in God should do.”
After two days’
fellowship, I finally understood the questions that had baffled me
and gave up my former notions. Only then did I realize that all that
I had done before were deeds that resist and rebel against God. If
God had treated me according to my evil doings, I should have long
been cursed by God. I am sincerely grateful to Almighty God for
giving me a second life, which left me a chance to receive God’s
salvation of the last days. The above is the story of how I fiercely
resisted Almighty God’s work of the last days. I hope that none of
the brothers and sisters who have not accepted Almighty God’s
gospel of the last days will resist God and reject His salvation
while expecting Him to come like me. Because the word of Almighty God
says: “The return of Jesus is a great salvation for those who are
capable of accepting the truth, but for those who are unable to
accept the truth it is a sign of condemnation. You should choose your
own path, and should not blaspheme against the Holy Spirit and reject
the truth. You should not be an ignorant and arrogant person, but
someone who obeys the guidance of the Holy Spirit and longs for and
seeks the truth; only in this way will you benefit.” (from The Word
Appears in the Flesh)
When I finished
writing this testimony, my face was covered with tears. I remembered
the scenes of the past, when I rebelled against and resisted Almighty
God and when my sister left my home in tears. I thought: How hard
Almighty God carries out the work on the earth and how much
humiliation He has suffered for saving man. Although I fabricated
rumors, spoke blasphemous and slanderous words against Him, and
sealed off the church, Almighty God didn’t abandon me or repay me
according to my sins of resistance against Him; rather, He did all He
could to save me, sending people to preach the gospel to me again and
again, and finally brought me before Him and gave me an opportunity
to repent and start anew. At that time, I couldn’t help crying to
God, “O Almighty God! I was too rebellious and I grieved You. I
feel deeply indebted to You…. In the rest of my life, I will devote
myself to testifying Your wonderful deeds!”